1. |
ciiity
02:09
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HOW DO I FIND MY WAY THROUGH THE BUILDINGS
I WILL NEVER EVER FEEL THE SAME
HOW DO I FIND MY WAY THROUGH THE CITY
THINGS WILL NEVER EVER FEEL THE SAME
YOU'RE GONNA WANNA KICK ME
YOU'RE GONNA WANNA HIT ME
YOU'RE GONNA WANNA PUNCH ME
YOU'ER GONNA WANNA KILL ME
NO YOU'RE NEVER READY, NO
NO YOU'RE NEVER READY, NO
I WAS NEVER READY, NO
I WAS NEVER READY, NO
HOW DO I FIND MY WAY THROUGH THE BUILDINGS
I WILL NEVER EVER FEEL THE SAME
HOW DO I FIND MY WAY THROUGH THE CITY
THINGS WILL NEVER EVER FEEL THE SAME
YOU'RE GONNA WANNA KICK ME
YOU'RE GONNA WANNA HIT ME
YOU'RE GONNA WANNA PUNCH ME
YOU'ER GONNA WANNA KILL ME
NO YOU'RE NEVER READY, NO
NO YOU'RE NEVER READY, NO
I WAS NEVER READY, NO
I WAS NEVER READY, NO
HOW DO I FIND MY WAY THROUGH THE BUILDINGS
I WILL NEVER EVER FEEL THE SAME
HOW DO I FIND MY WAY THROUGH THE CITY
THINGS WILL NEVER EVER FEEL THE SAME
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2. |
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I SHOULD LEAVE MYSELF ALONE
IT DOESN'T FKKIN MAKE SENSE
I SHOULD'VE KNOWN
NOW I AM DEAD AND SHEDDING MY OWN MOULD
WOULD IT PAY YOU TO HELP ME
TO HEAL MY SOUL
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3. |
sunrise
03:15
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[CHORUS]
RUNRISE IN THE MORNING WILL JUST LEAD TO SUNSET
AND NOW I JUST WANNA TAKE A SECOND TO BASK IN IT
CUZ WHEN EVERYTHING IS BROKEN DOWN TO THE BASICS
I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT IT'S ALREADY OVER
RUNRISE IN THE MORNING WILL JUST LEAD TO SUNSET
AND NOW I JUST WANNA TAKE A SECOND TO BASK IN IT
CUZ WHEN EVERYTHING IS BROKEN DOWN TO THE BASICS
I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT IT'S ALREADY OVER
[CHORUS]
RUNRISE IN THE MORNING WILL JUST LEAD TO SUNSET
AND NOW I JUST WANNA TAKE A SECOND TO BASK IN IT
CUZ WHEN EVERYTHING IS BROKEN DOWN TO THE BASICS
I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT IT'S ALREADY OVER
RUNRISE IN THE MORNING WILL JUST LEAD TO SUNSET
AND NOW I JUST WANNA TAKE A SECOND TO BASK IN IT
CUZ WHEN EVERYTHING IS BROKEN DOWN TO THE BASICS
I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT IT'S ALREADY OVER
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4. |
sunrise (pt2)[WIP]
01:55
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I CAN'T TELL YOU HOW I'M FEELING...
NOT CUZ I DON'T WANT TO BUT...
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO PUT IN WORDS
THE WAY MY MENTAL'S BEEN BUT I CAN SAY THAT IT HASN'T BEEN GOOD
I WISH I COULD MAKE THIS SOUND GOOD
SPIN IT TO MAKE IT DANCABLE
BUT I DON'T KNOW IF I SHOULD BE DOIN THAT TO MYSELF...
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5. |
i am not ok at all
03:02
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[CHORUS]
I AM NOT OK AT ALL
AND I'M TIRED OF LYING TO YOU BOUT IT ALL
CAUSE EVERYDAY THAT PASSES BY JUST HURTS
AND ALL THIS WILL COME AND BITE ME BACK LATER
[VERSE1]
TO CLARIFY WHAT I SAID IN THE PAST
MY MIND IS ALWAYS IN A BACK & FORTH WITH DEATH AND THE PAST
AND I GUESS WHAT I'M REALLY CONCERNED ABOUT is WITH OTHERS
BECAUSE I DON'T TALK ABOUT MY PROBLEMS CAUSE I DON'T WANNA BE A BOTHER
AND THE LITTLE VOICE THAT'S INSIDE OF MY HEAD SAYS...
NOT TO BE EDGY OR ANYTHING, BUT
"I GUESS IT DOESN'T REALLY MATTER WHAT I DO
CAUSE EVERYTHING THAT I MAKE WILL NEVER HAVE ANY APPEAL TO YOU"
[CHORUS]
I AM NOT OK AT ALL
AND I'M TIRED OF LYING TO YOU BOUT IT ALL
CAUSE EVERYDAY THAT PASSES BY JUST HURTS
AND ALL THIS WILL COME AND BITE ME BACK LATER
[VERSE2]
TO CLARIFY WHAT I'LL SAY IN THE FUTURE
OR MAYBE JUST TO WORRY PEOPLE LESS,
I'VE APPLIED TO OVER 20 THERAPISTS
AND NONE OF THEM HAVE EVER CALLED ME BACK IT'S ALL MISSED
CALLS AND I APOLOGISE ABOUT ALL MY SELF DESTRUCTIVE TENDENCIES
AND HOW EVERY SINGLE THING THAT I SAY'S SELF DEPRICATING
BUT THIS IS THE ONLY WAY I CAN GET ALL THESE THOUGHTS OUT
WITHOUT DOING SOMETHING THAT I WILL BE EMBARRASSED ABOUT
[BRIDGE]
MY OWN VOICE IT MAKES ME SICK
BUT I GUESS THAT THAT'S OK
DESPITE IT DEMOTIVATING ME MORE THAN ANYTHING
UNTIL THEN I APOLOGISE ABOUT MY VOICE NOT FITTING
I CAN'T DO ANTHING ABOUT IT
[CHORUS]
I AM NOT OK AT ALL
AND I'M TIRED OF LYING TO YOU BOUT IT ALL
CAUSE EVERYDAY THAT PASSES BY JUST HURTS
AND ALL THIS WILL COME AND BITE ME BACK LATER
I AM NOT OK AT ALL
AND I'M TIRED OF LYING TO YOU BOUT IT ALL
CAUSE EVERYDAY THAT PASSES BY JUST HURTS
AND ALL THIS WILL COME AND BITE ME BACK LATER
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6. |
participate&play
04:38
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[verse1]
i know nobody's really coming
please stop lying[line] to me it's all getting so tiring
they've abandoned me, they've tortured me
don't expect for me to suddenly just trust you
you act like everything's so easy
"all you need's a friend" but nobody is asking
just leave me alone, so i can talk to ghosts
you've shown me they are all who listen
[prechor1]
is it so hard to listen to somebody else for once
is it so hard to forget and let bygones be bygones
god knows i'm past the point of no return
i'm not your pet i'm not your slave just let me burn
[chor]
but you insist that i just listen and
take everything in that you've said a thousand times before and more
did you really think that i would
participate and play
[verse2]
i would leave everything so quiet
and my room so dark nobody occupied it
not that i could do anything to change
afterall, everybody told me
"you must be motherfuckin homeless
with how shit you look, no wonder you're so hopeless
you are not human, not in our eyes anymore"
[prechor 2]
yet after everything i've explained time and time before
stopped ignoring things, opened up bout the blood on the floor
after e-ve-ry single plead for help
you ask for my advice instead and celebrate how you're well
[chorus 2]
well you insist that i just listen and
take everything in that you've said to hundreds of people before
how do you possibly think i would
participate and play
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7. |
energy drinks
03:55
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[verse 1]
energy drinks and dxm
the only things that let me talk to my friends
i know it is a bad habit
but it's either this or i slit my wrists
i'd die before i let this go
the mania makes me feel like a heroine
in my mind there must be black holes
i'm so scared to die, but death holds me close
[verse 2]
it is all my fault what i got myself into
there is nothing you could possibly do
to assure me it was out of my hands
no, i'll carry this burden to the end
if i was never born
then i bet the world would be so much more
and if i could just be ignored
i bet so many more people would be happier
[verse 3]
staring at all the things i wrote on the wall
to remind myself how not to fall off
the past few years have been a slow crawl
to the pit in the ground where i'll rot
no-one ever seems to help me
it all seems like it's me they're testing
it might be crazy, what i'm thinking
maybe i'm just doing this to myself purposefully
[verse 4]
deciding to keep to myself
it was the best idea, least i've felt
there's too much chemicals inside me
on the bright side, my brain could stop working
i've taught myself to enjoy the paranoia
don't think it's healthy, but it's better
than being scared all of the fuckin time
plus it makes me cooler, at least in my mind
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8. |
plz hide
03:46
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[v1]
honestly i preffered depression
at least then my body wasn't in delusion
it was only my mind,
but now it always feels like i got way too high
maybe i shouldn't have done that every single day for an entire year of my fuckin life
i ask all these questions but avoid that maybe that's the reason behind the decline
[v2]
this is the beginning of the motherfuckin end
saying "sayonara" to all of my... friends
i've been steadily sinking for a long time now
lookin up, nobody pulls me out
if i asked for help, would that be too "attention horny" or what
cuz honestly i can't tell the difference between what's self-help and what IS just fucked up
[v3]
they say i need to get help
but you know what? i've had enough of it
had enough therapists tryna help me on this
this isn't something that can just fixed
NO, THIS IS SOME LIFE-LONG THING
medication won't stop me from walking in the rain
no, no, i don't need help, all that i need is friends to get me through hell
I CAN DO THIS ALL ON MY OWN
DON'T NEED NOBODY TRYNA KICK ME FROM MY THRONE
JUST THROW ME BONE, KICK ME OUTTA HOME
I DON'T KNOW HOW I'LL GO BUT I'LL GO AND I'LL SHOW YOU
"WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS?" I GOT MY REASONS
"SURE THAT YOU GOT THIS?" I'VE LEARNED TO LIVE IN
A CONSTANT FLOWIN MOTION
WHERE I DON'T NEED STABILITY, I'M MY OWN FOUNDATION
[CHORUS]
I LIVE OFF RAW EMOTION, MAYBE MIND WILL HIDE WHAT'S ON INSIDE
I LIVE OFF FEAR AND IMPULSION AND I AM FEARING MY OWN LIFE
[BRIDGE]
I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING NOR'LL I THROUGH THIS
WETHER OR NOT IT'S ALIVE
OVERFLOWIN EMOTIONS, I'VE RODE THE OCEAN
AND ONLY ONCE DID I DIE
[CHORUS]
I LIVE OFF RAW EMOTION, MAYBE MIND WILL HIDE WHAT'S ON INSIDE
I LIVE OFF FEAR AND IMPULSION AND I AM FEARING MY OWN LIFE
PLEASE HIDE
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9. |
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10. |
sanity
04:08
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what's become of me
my reality
is unwinding
my sanity
dark and shadowed creatures who only show when my eyes are closed
faces in every clock that watch me no matter where i go
firey apocalyptic inferno scenario
deforestation of family trees due to cause unknown
what's become of me
my reality
is slowly sinking
into fatality
oh
clouded mind, clouds cover mines, can't find the life i left behind
time and time, time passes by, timed blind by knives and chimes til five
lobotomized by the kind who used to comfort and be kind
figured i might die i tried to hide but life stabs from behind
ah, the mess i got into
ah, s'inevitable to
ah, and deeper the cracks go
ah, what concept is unknown
ah
ah, you never gave me a choice, oh well
ah, all of my thoughts in a jumbled hell
now all, all that resides is[in?] an empty shell
and ah, i never learned, never will, oh well
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11. |
whatit'dbeliketodrown
02:07
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IT WAS SO LONG AGO
NOW I MAY NEVER KNOW
OH IT FEELS SO HOLLOW
LOOKIN THRU THE WINDOW
IF MY BRAIN DON'T CALM DOWN
& STOP THINKIN ABOUT
WHAT IT'D BE LIKE TO DROWN
OH I MIGHT IT NOW
DON'T CALM DOWN
DON'T CALM DOWN
DON'T CALM DOWN
DON'T CALM DOWN
DON'T CALM DOWN
DON'T CALM DOWN
DON'T CALM DOWN
DON'T CALM DOWN
DON'T CALM DOWN
DON'T CALM DOWN
DON'T CALM DOWN
DON'T CALM DOWN
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making music that makes me happy
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