i woke up on a summer day feeling groggy as i do everyday turned off my alarm & slept again and slept all the way until 2PM now i guess i shoulda known that this would happen staying up until 5 in the AM but i guess i thought today would be different stay up longer schedule would be good again well i said “fuck it, paired with the things that happen during the day’s another needle in the haystack that i know that i will later be back at trying to pick the good thing out but i just can’t now i’ll admit that i feel like shit & i let it get to me but it’s not like i can do anything about it specially since it’s repeating may be an hour may be a minute until i feel like a human again all this loneliness will be gone, though it may not be what i want but it’s all that i got now... ... is the time where it comes again paired with all these feelings love, hate, & other things back to back, piece to piece & while i feel much at ease nobody wants to engage with me speaking, looking, not avoiding thought it may be too much to ask from people and though i try my hardest not to complain it’s hard to live with when you feel like an airplane up in the sky, everyone on the ground using you just to get around may be an hour may be a minute until i feel like a human again all this loneliness will be gone, though it may not be what i want but it’s all that i got now come, oh come with me, i’ve something you may wanna see a beaten figure on the ground, well that’s me and though i smile and tell you i’m glistening the truth is my mind feels like it’s boiling filled to the brim with all of these strange things i know my purpose is to let others bring harm to me and before i put down the final blow and no i’m not asking, i’m taking you with me may be an hour may be a minute until i feel like a human again all this loneliness will be gone, though it may not be what i want but it’s all that i got now may be an hour may be a minute until i feel like a human again all this loneliness will be gone, though it may not be what i want but it’s all that i got now it may not be what i want but it’s all that i got now it may not be what i want but it’s all that i got now

everything that you know will turn into nothing in the end it starts with a little push and then you make the dive in changing your life for better or the worse and all throughout this life i’ve been trying to find what my outcome was guess there’s just some things we will never know, huh? 時々私はこのルームをペース と時間が経つと僕 は何もをします だから誰も僕を見ません 僕は寂しいずっと何時迄も じゃあ、あなたは駄目だな それが分かりますけど俺まだ君が 好きだ 君僕の一番嫌いひとこの先もずっと 君が知って？お前知って？ みんなに対して 終わりで全部は何もだよ everyday & everynight from noon until midnight i wait for the end to come patiently “now i could always just kill myself that seems the best thing to do! it’s so easy” is what i used to think 毎日は長い24時間だよ 時計のチクタクウザい お願いやめてよ だから誰もは僕を見ません 僕は寂しいずっと何時迄も じゃあ、あなたは駄目だな それが分かりますけど俺まだ君が 好きだ 君僕の一番嫌いひとこの先もずっと 君が知って？お前知って？ みんなに対して 終わりで全部は何もだよ hold my fingernails with tweezers and pull them out then get the torch & melt my skin onto the ground & without any ounce of anaesthetic now hold my arms & rip them out get a scalpel & open up my head poke 7 needles into my eyes, then sew my mouth shut so i can stop screaming put your mouth my stomach & eat up my skin だから誰もは俺を聞きません 僕は寂しいないよずっと何時迄も じゃあ、あなたはパーフェクトだ それ分かりますけど何時迄も貴方大 好きだ 君僕の一番好きひとこの先もずっと 君が知って？貴方知って？ 貴方を愛してる 終わりで全部 朝から晩まで 終わりで全部は良いだよね

In a dark, dark forest people disappeared without a trace, without a sound no one would hear... distant screaming voices souls blackened with fear and it's happening every second all throughout this year

there ain’t nothing like somebody out there with a body of which they love everything and there’s nothing like somebody who’s out there with nobody to satisfy their brain oh, how i’d love to live like them for just a day i’ve watched him from day to night finding out about him, all his life seeing how easy it is for him he has never suffered, not one bit reluctantly, i had to make friends just so i could get closer to him spending nights together out in town go’n to concerts, listening to the sounds finally he invited me over a party he was throwing in october he writes the address and gives me a slip, but showing up early wouldn’t hurt, would it? so i home and plan it out i’ve learned a trick that could make me proud finally, a way to switch and live a life that i'd love to live so, this wretched soul is all that i know it’s so terrible being trapped trapped in this tat-tattered body that that can’t can’t get glad and when i look back, see the people so happy it me wanna just snap cuz there’s nothing like somebody out there with a body of which they love everything and there’s nothing like somebody who’s out there with nobody to satisfy their brain though i’m not horribly deformed so i guess i shouldn’t complain but i’d love to switch bodies with them, so they can feel my pain watching him out from afar i’ve followed him, and he gets out of his car a sudden rush enters in my heart finally knowing i’ve come this far my heart races as i approach him he enters his house but i’ve an opening he should know that by now his door wasn’t ever the most secure so i wait until he soon falls asleep all the lights are off, nobody’d see i get my card, slide it through the crack it pushes the lock in, an easy task it opens up, i breathe heavily under my footprint, the floorboards creak i make my way to his room and get out a weapon so i can get this over with so, this wretched soul is all that i know it’s so terrible being trapped trapped in this tat-tattered body that that can’t can’t look glad and when i look back, see the people so happy it me wanna just snap cuz there’s nothing like somebody out there with a body of which they love everything and there’s nothing like somebody who’s out there with nobody to satisfy their brain though i am not dead so i guess i shouldn’t complain but i’d love to see them on the floor with a splattered brain waking in the morning and looking at my hands feeling so happy i could dance i always knew getting out of this old body would cheer me up make me glad but i never knew how much i would love all of the aftermath so i get up, dragging my body out back to the yard where he would die in that sack but something’s not right this person is still wrong luckily for me more are coming

君は死亡するだよ 君の血液は俺の お前の脳は美味しいです 君のフレイバーが大好きです

i have tried all throughout my life to become something all i ever truly wanted was a friend & i feel that that was accomplished but i’m unfulfilled that i will be still, everyday, every week, every year, in tears and when my outro comes to time, i still will fear i will never truly make meaning of life will i? i guess i’ll never know in the end i will i amount to nothing & i’ll be floating in the wind a speck of dust as everything i don’t mean anything to anybody except for myself it’s pathetic everything truly leads to nothing in the end i’m sorry but i will have to say goodbye my friend